26 May 2010

Miracle?

Thank the LORD! Things are finally going back to the way they should be!!!
I got my Facebook back under my control!
I get to have my Sweet 16 and more than just 2 people are coming!
Friends have figured things out!
ILML again!

ILML=I Love My Life

25 May 2010

Still uber pissy

So this is my last week as a sophmore... My mother has ruined it completely. No sweet 16 no friends no anything. I really do hate her but now it seems I have friend problems and I am fucking staying out of it. K was mad at S for ditching her since S is dating A. I can understand that. Now the chances of me seeing friends are slim to none this summer. I want to spend time with S and SS and J and K and A and SF all of my friends I don't want to be caught in a fight. With things that have been going on the last thing i need is more drama so K and S i have decided that if i have to choose anyone i will choose no one. Now tell me if this is fkd up. S ate lunch with our usual group... N SS K J A and me K and N got up and left right after they were done eating... i wasn't done and was enjoying myself when usually i go with K I didnt see her until we went to the entry way and she just left then i saw her at her locker and started walkin towards her and she takes off fast... Is this fkd up or what... WHAT THE HEL DID I DO!?!?!?!?!?!!

24 May 2010

Fuck her

I hate my mom
I hate her so
She don't know what she saying
She hits so low
These things she say
are false indeed
but as far as she thinks
what she got is what she need
she is a ho beyond belief
she don't know what she is talking about
can't you see!

So my mom is a fucking cunt and says i am never safe saying i should't have a facebbok because it is so unsafe... well i say fuck her and i'lldo what i want and frankly i don't care what anybody think anymore eveyone here has or will piss me off... so no party for my birthday because she is a skank I hate her and i promise that when i marry with kids she will never see me again unless i am dead.

19 May 2010

Single ladies... (and my comments)

All the single ladies, all the single ladies
All the single ladies, all the single ladies
All the single ladies, all the single ladies
All the single ladies

Now put your hands up
Up in the club, we just broke up
I'm doing my own little thing
Decided to dip and now you wanna trip
Cause another brother noticed me (not really)

I'm up on him, he up on me
Don't pay him any attention
Just cried my tears, for three good years
Ya can't be mad at me (not 3 years... and there isnt another guy...)

Cause if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don't be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it (okay so you did but still)
Oh, oh, oh

If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don't be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it (like i said in the ^above^

I got gloss on my lips, a man on my hips
Got me tighter in my Dereon jeans
Acting up, drink in my cup
I can care less what you think (i dont care so ha!)

I need no permission, did I mention
Don't pay him any attention
Cause you had your turn and now you gonna learn
What it really feels like to miss me (HELLZ YA!)

Cause if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don't be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it (...)
Oh, oh, oh

If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don't be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it( ^^^^^^^^^)
Oh, oh, oh

Don't treat me to the things of the world
I'm not that kind of girl
Your love is what I prefer, what I deserve (mmhmm)

Here's a man that makes me then takes me
And delivers me to a destiny, to infinity and beyond
Pull me into your arms, say I'm the one you own
If you don't, you'll be alone
And like a ghost Ill be gone (AGREE... anyone else?)

All the single ladies, all the single ladies
All the single ladies, all the single ladies
All the single ladies, all the single ladies
All the single ladies
Now put your hands up, oh, oh, oh

Cause if you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don't be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it (yada yada)
Oh, oh, oh

If you liked it then you should have put a ring on it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it
Don't be mad once you see that he want it
If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it (^blah blah^)
Oh, oh, oh

18 May 2010

Yay

So excited ya know! My birthday is on the 31st! Sweet 16 here I come!!!! Too bad i like dont get much of a party but i invited 5 of my good friends to see Letter to Juliet and then come back over to stay the night... get us girls together and it will be wild. hoping that i will be able to rent a movie off of the tv.... maybe something with a sexy shirtless guy.... speaking of there has been this movie on the pst few days with an actor i know nothing of that has his shirt off most of the movie and it just is sooooooo HOT!!!! LOL gotta love hot guys right?! Right now i should be dong an assignment in math so.... oh well... i have until friday....... LOL so hyper just in a good freaking mood... LOLLOLOLOLOL why does this kid keep looking at me.... <-- MATT YOU'RE SO WEIRD!!!! LOL JK LY!


SINGLE LADIES ROCK!!!!!

Dark Abyss

So I finally have a chance to post this dang thing since it has been on a damed computer at school for forevr and a day.... ENJOY!

Slowly shuffling along the edge, backs pressed against the wall, they breathe a sigh of relief for the end of the six inch ledge is just feet away. The air escapes their bodies slowly as air being relieved from a tire. Pebbles fall into the dark, bottomless cavern below. They stop.
“Please be careful,” she whispers so quietly he almost couldn’t hear, “I don’t want to lose you.”
“Oh believe me, I am being careful.”
She can’t help but to glance below every few minutes. All of the belongings they had brought with them were at the bottom now, never to be retrieved again. She closed her eyes and looked up attempting to squeeze the wall for dear life. A hand slipped over hers and she opened her eyes and looked into his. She saw the ocean through his clear blue hopeful eyes and couldn’t look away.
She truly loved him and this day would have been perfect if it wasn’t’ for the sudden collapse of the floor in the cave they had chosen to sleep in on their safari. They only had just enough time to thrust themselves against the wall and cling for safety as they watched all their supplies fall below. And now they hold to the edge and scoot across the small ledge to safety.
He looked into her eyes and said ever so hopefully, “Are you ready? I know we can do this.”
She closed he eyes in recognition, too scared to say anything out loud but he knew she was ready. He slipped his foot not even and inch in front of him and gently pushed to check for sturdiness. He then slid his back foot into the exact spot his previous foot had been. He did this several more times and each time his love followed him. Silence overtook them and soon all consciousness failed her. She subconsciously quit feeling in front of her and just slid her way along the wall.
CRACK!
The wall gave away as she moved her front foot. She clawed at the wall as she spun to fall. Energy shot she found a notch on the ledge and held with all her might. He snapped his neck back in her direction and uttered a gasp that could’ve been heard around the world if it had been a scream. He slowly slid further down the ledge, only inches from the safety, and was able to balance himself, legs separated. He reached down for her, trying to convince her to let go with just one hand. But she just couldn’t do it.
“Leave me!” She uttered through her tears a muffled scream, “Just leave!”
“I couldn’t go a day without you, not a moment, now please give me your hand. I’d rather die than go on with out you.”
He reached for her hand and she slowly slid hers along the wall towards his. She grasped the edge and he moved closer. The wall below him broke free and he plummeted to the bottom of the dark and deep hole.
“NO!”
Slowly she heard the screams dissipate into the darkness. Overwhelming pain and grief overcame her as she burst into crying screams of terror and the wall shook. The ceiling fell from above and wiped her below to her death

17 May 2010

I look so good (without you)

I swear i'm not stealing!!!!!
Just had to get this out there!!!
(i changed some words)


Mmmm yeahhh mmm.
Hey boy i would have thought that when i left you
I'd be broken with my confidence gone, so gone

Hey boy I would have thought that when i said
that i dont want you..
I'd feel ugly n sense something was wrong..
Standin' front of the mirror.. my skins never been clearer
My smile has never been brighter.

I look so good without you,
Got me a new hairdo
Looking fresh n brand new
since i said "that were through"
Done.. with your lies,
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my blue eyes
Ever since i said goodbye
I look so good, i look so good without you
I look so good, i look so good without you

Hey i never would have thought that when i left you
I'd feel so sexy and so good in my skin.. again
And i never would have known, that I'd be dreamin' so much better without you in my head
Standin' in front of the mirror, my clothes never fit better..
My life's never been brighter..

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Looking fresh & brand new
Since i said "that were through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my blue eyes
Ever since i said goodbye.
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you.

Now baby my bodys lookin' better than before
Aint bitin' my nails since i walked out of the door.
I realized now i deserve so much more, than what you give
Than what you give.. ohh ohh

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Looking fresh & brand new
Since i said "that were through"
I look so good without you,
Got me a new hairdo
Looking fresh & brand new
Since i said "that were through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my blue eyes
Ever since you said goodbye

I look so good without you
Got me a new hairdo
Lookin' fresh n brand new
Since i said "that we're through"
Done.. with your lies
Baby now my tears dried
You can see my blue eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good, I look so good without you
I look so good, I look so good without you





I gotta say i feel GOOD! OH HOT DAMN THIS IS MY JAM KEEP ON PARTYIN TO THE AM YALL DONT UNDERSTAND MAKE ME THROW MY HANDS IN THE AYER AY AY AYER!!!!!!

06 May 2010

Depth of death

They jumped over the edge and as she did the cap just fell right off of her head revealing her golden curls. The men standing on board gasped in amazement at what they saw. The two secret lovers dove below the surface as an explosion erupted from the ship. Scraps of wood and all the belongings of the sailors blew into the air and nestled themselves gently on the water. The man and woman rose to the surface and fought for air grabbing onto a shattered wooden board. The board soared along the waves that thrashed the couple about crashing into other remnants of the disaster and tore away at the man’s hide. He attempted to stay aboard the shard the only thing that kept him from plummeting to his death was her. As the waves calmed, he lifted his head to see her slipping away from him. She had been knocked out by an unknown object and was lifeless. She slipped and he reached for her. But alas he was too late. She fell below the board and sank into the bottomless abyss we call the sea. He was left alone on the shard of wood. Blistered, torn, and slivered. No longer had he, the chance to live, the fight or will. Yet he could not bring himself to the torture of suffocation and his lungs collapsing as they fill with water. He used the little strength he had left to pull himself on top of the driftwood and took his last few breathes and movements to pull out a bled picture of his love and simply whisper , “I love you” as he died of exhaustion and a broken heart.

Not actual encounter

05 May 2010

Bus rides -> New girl EMBRACE IT!

I really hate riding the bus wen the damd driver has 2 pik up extra streets. Instead of the peaceful 6 of us its a full bus. A full bus of mostly anoying freshmen.
Now who hates freshmen? I DO! They annoy the $hit out of me. Parayding around the hals acting 2 cool for skool in reality they just started hi skool its more the seniors who should be 2 cool for skool. Or evn betr yet the seniors in colege shood b the ones prouncing around cuz ges wat! THEY R DONE!
I may b a sophmore myself but it seems as tho they r almost as bad. Im sure evry1 has seen that group of girls or evn guys that no1 wants 2 admit they no or r evn in the same class. 9/10 ( <-- actual statistic) thos girls r sophmores.
Why cant evry1 just giv up and act like an idiot like me and my wondrful frends tho im sure im the most weird and stupid and posbly the nicest person u wil evr meet unles u get on my bad side. Dont alwaz judge the girl who is full of life and is embracing it evry way she can. Dont say she is weird until uv met her u mite actualy end up realy enjoying the time u hav with her. Or betr yet b frends with the poor new girl. Dont shun her out. Put urself in her shoes and talk to her.

DON"T FCK WITH ME!

04 May 2010

Nvr evr

I hav only ever left 2 things on the computer desk and not found them aftr my fathers cleanin sprees.
Last year I left my jump drive then I had 2g2 school on a down day and forgot that it was in the computer. Since my dad didnt hav 2 work he cleaned the house which was nice but he cleaned the computer desk which ment moving my jump drive and then forgetting where he put it.
Then this morning I discovered my MP3 charger was missing after I left it in the computer in a hurried attempt 2 leave the house 2 babysit. But this time i found it. It was shoved in the camera case with all of its various cords cuz he thought that was where it went.
So in conclusion to all you future husbands and fathers (my mom has had problems 2) dont clean without asking first im sure its appreciated much more.

03 May 2010

EW!

So this kid jake found a puddle of white $hit on the bus and i sed 000000 sum1 had fun did u use a pic of ur gf or of a gorilla

01 May 2010

Nucken Futs

So right now i am hooked up mobily to twitter facebook and blogger LMAO! Isn't that just nucken futs-my word no borrowing or stealing

Long and boring!

PSH! Whatev! So today my day consisted of swimming and not even getting to make it to 2000 meters... babysitting coming home and doing nothing I got so bored I watched the hills and the city! PSH never again will i be this bored... Even worse my boyfriends fone died so no texting him while he is out of town. ):P