Well my people, i don't think i can stand to spend anymore time with my mother. I can't live through her grouchy bitchyness anymore.

Vacation

So in an hour I am leaving to go to Idaho for the next two weeks… I have to try my absolute hardest not to think about you know who… I'm going to use this time away from ND to forget about the douches… Wish me luck, I'll keep y'all updated with short entries from my phone.

I love you all!

Remember When by Avril Lavigne

Remember when I cried to you a thousand times
I told you everything
You know my feelings
It never crossed my mind
That there would be a time
For us to say goodbye
What a big surprise

But I’m not lost
I’m not gone
I haven’t forgot

[chorus]
These feelings I can’t shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I’m not coming back around
These feelings I can’t take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It’s getting harder to pretend
And I’m not coming back around again
Remember when…

I remember when
It was together ‘til the end
Now I’m alone again
Where do I begin?
I cried a little bit
You died a little bit
Please say there’s no regrets
And say you won’t forget

But I’m not lost
I’m not gone
I haven’t forgot

[chorus]
These feelings I can’t shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I’m not coming back around
These feelings I can’t take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It’s getting harder to pretend
And I’m not coming back around again
Remember when…

That was then
Now it’s the end
I’m not coming back
I can’t pretend
Remember When

[chorus]
These feelings I can’t shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I’m not coming back around
These feelings I can’t take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It’s getting harder to pretend
And I’m not coming back around again

Shredded

G made me feel better :) he supported me etc. and I am glad I have him here to guide me and help me.

Since I have been so angry lately, I shredded a popped floaty into dozens of pieces. Jeff and Jon gave me permission to use the BIG KNIFE!

Moral of the story: Don't use me or i'll destroy you!

Douchebags all around

So if you didn't read my last post "Shame" click here to read it now. You kinda need to read it before anything else makes sense because I don't feel up to par with recapping it again.

So after that douchebag ruined my night… summer… etc. I have a douchebag brother.

Should a 13 year old try and tell a 17 year old (who is much stronger) what to do? No.

See, here is a break down:

Back in Montana there was this group of 7th graders who rode the bus with the high schoolers (the two schools shared a bus due to lack of funds). Those 7th graders attempted to harass the upperclassmen. This continued as they became 8th graders in which time they became more ballsy and chose to harass the entire group of high schoolers on the bus. Now, one thing must be understood, the high schoolers couldn't do anything as these middle schoolers were still deemed children. When the 8th graders became freshmen, all hell broke loose and they were continued to be harassed and basically bullied all freshmen year and i predict all this year.

Now, my brother has turned into one of these sorts and I don't see it ending well for him. I am no longer protecting him. He to can have a nice life because I am going to leave it.

Anyone else want to be a douche too?