Two too many times...

I can't quit crying this time. I feel I have had to say this too much and now it's about someone I loved. I can't believe he is gone. I don't know what to do with myself anymore….

RIP Brian I love you forever and always. Until we can be together.

Brian Sullivan <3

Well my people, i don't think i can stand to spend anymore time with my mother. I can't live through her grouchy bitchyness anymore.

Vacation

So in an hour I am leaving to go to Idaho for the next two weeks… I have to try my absolute hardest not to think about you know who… I'm going to use this time away from ND to forget about the douches… Wish me luck, I'll keep y'all updated with short entries from my phone.

I love you all!

Remember When by Avril Lavigne

Remember when I cried to you a thousand times
I told you everything
You know my feelings
It never crossed my mind
That there would be a time
For us to say goodbye
What a big surprise

But I’m not lost
I’m not gone
I haven’t forgot

[chorus]
These feelings I can’t shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I’m not coming back around
These feelings I can’t take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It’s getting harder to pretend
And I’m not coming back around again
Remember when…

I remember when
It was together ‘til the end
Now I’m alone again
Where do I begin?
I cried a little bit
You died a little bit
Please say there’s no regrets
And say you won’t forget

But I’m not lost
I’m not gone
I haven’t forgot

[chorus]
These feelings I can’t shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I’m not coming back around
These feelings I can’t take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It’s getting harder to pretend
And I’m not coming back around again
Remember when…

That was then
Now it’s the end
I’m not coming back
I can’t pretend
Remember When

[chorus]
These feelings I can’t shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I’m not coming back around
These feelings I can’t take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It’s getting harder to pretend
And I’m not coming back around again

Shredded

G made me feel better :) he supported me etc. and I am glad I have him here to guide me and help me.

Since I have been so angry lately, I shredded a popped floaty into dozens of pieces. Jeff and Jon gave me permission to use the BIG KNIFE!

Moral of the story: Don't use me or i'll destroy you!