Awful

I am honestly feeling awful! (Incase you didn't see the title) I don't really have a clue of what to think anymore. I am no longer in hate but rather i am regretting everything i've said and i feel that the only way i can fix it is to write a letter that i can pour my heart into but considering the timing i am wrong and it would seem skanky. i keep having these awful nightmares but in reality it is just a repeat of what i did and said. To be honest, i keep thinking about what we did and i am heartbroken. i just wanted some time away you know cuz the summer of opportunities was coming up and i was tired of hurting. I don;t know what to do lets all hope i make the right choice.

For truth

I believe that this past weekend I have truly connected with God! In some strange way I feel different and more mature. Listening to Justin Fatica's (LOOK HIM UP) talk really opened my eyes to the people around me. Not only the ones that I care for but the ones that I don't even know. I am truly upset that we had to leave early. But what he said will stay in my heart forever. I may listen to the music that is awful, I may cuss up a storm, but I am a God fearing Catholic girl who doesn't want to destroy her relationship with Our Lord Jesus Christ. As Justin said, "YOU ARE AMAZING AND DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU THAT YOU AREN'T!!!!" If you are a parent who doesn't know how to protect their kids from this world, get one of his books. If you are a teen who feels alone and without a purpose, get his books! God Bless Everyone in this joyful season!

Today's topic: Dumbass People

mainly today i am just sick of people. Random people just walking in the hall that think they are the shiz are the worst. It's pretty hard to describe this hatred that you have for someone that you don't even know. Just the way they walk, the way they talk, the way they laugh and smile. it is so annoying how people think that they are right. your hair is huge your ass is unproportional… why are people so in love with you? Jealous, leeching people maybe? I honestly have no idea but what i do know is people just need to knock the fuck off!!!!!

Dear peacekeeper

Yesterday was pretty epic, and probably the scariest night of my life thus far. I went over to Elly's for just a hang out night to kind of say, "Fuck all you people at homecoming dance". Well, it all went down hill when her bcbf showed up with his friend to take us to his place. Well, her bcbf was piss ass drunk. His friend soon left and it was just the three of us. The ass hole had the nerve to blow smoke in my face and call Elly a whore and slut. We couldn't get out of there. Then she asked for his friends number so we could get a ride and he freaked out for like 30 seconds and never gave us the number. Did i mention he spiked Elly's drink and I had to dump it out before she got too wasted. But, anyways, he was all like, "I gotta pee bitches" and i'm pretty disgusted and still trying to get ahold of somebody with her phone so we could get a ride. He stands up and strokes my arm and he's all like, "Wanna come with you could watch and do some stuff that she doesn't have to know about" and i was like "WTF NO! get your drunk ass outta my face." Well that sent him over the edge and he told me to fucking get out then he started screaming at Elly about her wanting to supposedly hook up with the guy that she asked the number for. So his dad was freaking out and screaming that he was gonna call the cops and finally Elly's dad got ahold of me and I got her outta there as fast as possible and we walked to the TCBY and her parents picked us up. It was a bunch of bull. The thing now is that neither of them remembers anything. I'm not entirely sure what all to tell them but all i know is i am fucking disgusted.




bcbf- booty call boy friend

STFU!!!!!

Hello my people! It's been awhile hasn't it!?
Okay so a catch up on my recent life… hmmmm i made an amazingly awesome bitchin' friend ELLY! Holy fuck she is the bomb. Just wait til i tell you a gist of it all.
So, I don't know if all these rumors are necessarily true or not but I have heard from a number of people that a certain jackass has been calling me a lezbo slut. Well, Mr Jackass I would like to state that I am not a lezbo slut. I shouldn't have to prove this to anyone but I guess that lil' tipsy feeling I have makes me want to redeem myself!
Reason 1: I am not a lezbo.
The term lezbo states that I am attracted to women and the fact of the matter is that I am so not. Let me tell you about a fun summer. I was at this party and I was buzzed this guy tried to get in my pants but I demanded he get me another drink first. Well, he did haha best make out ever! Take that fugga! (Charlie if you are reading this we should do it again sometime)
Reason 2: I am not a slut….
It only fucking happened once get your facts straight you piece of shit!
Okay so the few encounters I have had with Mr. Asshole are brief, very brief, I would like to point out that my dear friend does not like you. Do not flatter yourself for one second and think that someone so pretty could ever like you. She doesn't have a shred of attraction for you bitch. All the winks and waves were to get back at you for all the bull shitty comments that you have made and all the lies you have told all the glares I have seen that I know you'd try to deny. So Mr. Asshole go fuck yourself. Compare yourself to that of the bitchy liars that oppress our everyday lives you worthless bitch!
I would like to address the public in saying that last Sunday, October 3, would have been one year for us and for all the people who think that i was extremely depressed think again, please. On that day I watched a little YouTube video (no longer up) from his recent "heartbreak" saying how awful he is and I have realized that I made the right choice to dump that lousy freeloading poser.

I love you all sincerely,
Dumb ass American military teenage BRAT!

stfu-shut the fuck up