To explain

To explain my last blog you must join me inside my life. This week hasn't been the best in my book. I wanted to give up. I mean, the thought process in my head was, what is the point of going forth if you have no motivation. I'm sure everyone has those days. They aren't that great so why do they hurt us so much. Why does life have to be so hard? A good life is worth working for. No one should ever have to feel like they don't deserve life. If you don't deserve life then why did God create you. Everyone has a reason!

We all need to cry

If there has ever been a bad week for you…
If you've ever worried about the future…
If you have ever been stuck hoping with no prevail…
If you've ever wished to get away…
If you've ever wanted to give up…
If you've ever given up…
If you've ever lost someone…
If you've ever just wanted someone to hold you…
If you've ever felt alone…
If you've ever needed love…
If you're tired of life…

Cry. CRY. CRY! You are loved! You are never forgotten! Don't give up! YOU ARE AMAZING!

Roman Orange Soda???

So I am so like tired ya know! Like I couldn't celebrate my new year the way i wanted it tooo but damn straight… I am celebrating now!!!! I gots me some stuff that has yummy stuffs in it! I gots me some orange soda and an itty bitty amount of rum and white wine! oh no wait its vodka or is it spelt vadka… i think its vodka… i am so like wow like on my third one and i am hahaha typing with two pencils!!!! it is kinda funny. but the sad thing is that i have church at like eight and its like almost 2!s uh oh?!!!! i should prob dump da rest of this chizzyshiz out huh????? ya i tink soooooooo!!!!!

Life… for better or for worse

You know life has handed me some pretty amazing people in my time. My friends know who you are and a few i consider my sisters like Emilie or Kenzie. But it is safe to admit that i have been looking for a male figure, someone to hang out with and not be girly and shit. G (not sure if I use his actual name so I'll use the street) . G is an amazing friend. You ever had one of those great friends of the opposite sex where you can be your fucked up self and they don''t care, be as gross as you want or whatever? G is one of those friends bringing me up when I'm down, never letting me feel like I don't belong. We hang out all the time. I always go over to work to "work" or "swim" but in actuality I'm hanging out and acting stupid with him. It's great because we don't always have to be stupid and crazy to have something in common. We have completely serious conversations about anything. It's kind of like having a boyfriend without all the baggage. It was funny, today G said that one day he wants to meet my ex… so he can give him a piece of mind(in short terms, kick his ass). I am so stoked! I honestly thought this year was going to suck. But slowly things a turning around (and only half way through the year…) Well life is good for me, I hope yours is successful.

Happy

So my bumming mood is over! I have been forgiven! It wasn't the way I wanted or what I hoped for but it was something. Right?