Vent

I am not really sure what I want to say… I've done things I never dreamed I would do… I felt the way I have never felt. I feel as though I have loved without loving or wanting. I have made relationships that may last a lifetime or just for this moment. I have made friends that will be there forever and are true. Friends aren't the bitches that talk behind your back, or the people who lie and cheat with your fate. I have made friends that are the opposite sex and they are the closest people I have to a happy family.

Amber! I fucking hate you! I can't stand working with you! Please move to where ever the fuck you are going already! We at the pool are all sick and tired of your baptist-bible thumping-sheltered-homeschooled attitude!

I think that the way to describe how you make me feel every second of every day is distanced…

Christina Perri "Distance"

The sun is filling up the room
And I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do right now?
I wish we would just give up
Cause the best part is falling
Call it anything but love

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And please don't stand so close to me
I'm having trouble breathing
I'm afraid of what you'll see right now
I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats
Until I know you'll understand

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And I keep waiting
For you to take me
You keep waiting
To say what we have

So I make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

Make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long til we call this love, love, love?

This song can say it or any other song along those lines… its how I feel I just wish you'd tell me how you feel. You bring out the best of me, the worst of me, things about me I didn't even know. You bring me past my fears. You have pulled me through hell into heaven. You have helped me regain what I lost, polish it, and let it shine. Is it so much to ask for you not to leave me… here of all places. Take me with you. set me free. Please luv, don't leave.

I have nothing against baptists. Just Amber is a bitchy dumbass.